Fantasies....

Living in a motivational place--
what is that alchemy among some-- ?

how do you cultivate-- even among people you love and know dearly--- that level of "privacy" and "formality" that stimulates you both to create? [[Is this the true meaning of respect]] Looking always for the best in each other-- and hoping to inspire it as well--
as if-- there was no other way.
As if, it wasn't that either of you could possibly fail--- a game-- but also fate of sorts-- trying to impress each other--

I'm wondering if this is the true meaning of integrity--- that which our english teacher Hilsabeck asked us in 2000.
The ability to exist within the particular vacuum--- the particular microcosm and relatavistic space of your own little diety and bag of tricks-- but also inspiring and stimulating the other mythological characters (around, within and about) --
This is an interesting dream.

This is not the surrealist, psychological etc-- probing dream that i had growing up in the late 90's and early 2000's.
We all wanted to come to the ___bottom___ (or I at least especially) of our particular disorders.

We weren't particulary concerned with the Top.

This is not to say that surrealism-- and improv-- and psychology cannot exist within these realms--

I guess i've never tried to find people to be in competition with--- because i've rarely found people who knew my game-- (and I rarely knew other peoples)--
So i thought i didn't like competition.
But things are narrowing in, as they do.
Rob Brezney-- among many other wonderful friends i actually Know in Real Life.

Just keep on truckin' boy.

peace
the laughing g.